Current Struggles

So today, first day of what should be my third semester at college at Texas A&M, didn't go very well because I don't attend the school anymore.

In high school I graduated number seven in my class out of 859 students. I had a 4.8 gpa out of a 5.0. I am a bright kid currently 19 years old that has let his dreams take over his life. First year of college I was lazy with my school work, partying, and simply just having fun living on my own for the first time in my life.

Well, I got kicked out of school. Sucks? Yeah, I know. But I couldn't bare tell my parents because of the disappointment they would feel. So I did what any scared young kid would do. I lied. I'm currently living on my own in the city of College Station, TX. My parents think I still go to school, all my friends back home think I am still in school. But I know I am not in school.

I have dreams of becoming a young professional and starting a family of my own one day. But that's going to have to wait a bit. So now I'm looking for a job in the area of my ex-university. And depression seizes my body. I am living off of a small amount of money I made back in the summer of 2008. My funds running low, my hope drying out, my drive and determination crumbling.

This is the first blog of many to come. I needed ways to release some stress I have built inside of myself, and this seems to work. I plan on updating on a day to day basis. Leave comments and such not about anything you feel fit. Encouraging words of hope for me or others, or even insults. Maybe something someone says will get me to get my life back on track to success and becoming a productive member of society.

Thanks,
Tony Z